Wonderful Things of Amusement

I'm sorry about my bad typing i am not good with it.

She gave me the password to her aol account so that i could e mail you on behalf of my daughter. I am up in Mt Shasta.

Rebecca is having a break down, anxiety and suisidal thoughts. She gave me her aol password incase of an emergency and i am so \thankful that she gave it to me and that i didn't lose it like i usually do. She called me abbot 40 minutes ago and asked me to give you all a message.

Becky is very distraught and she can't function and is having suicidal thoughts. She is in a manic episode. She called me to inform me she is being taken by ambulance to the hospital. She won't be staying 48 hours because of her pets, she will try and figure out how to do that. She called me as she was waiting for the ambulance, she wanted me al to tell you people, i guess her rat friends that she is going back to the hospital for an evaluation and hopefully refereed to a psychiatrist.. Without that they could forcefully hold her and we don't want that because of her pets' I'm sure they'll let her go but under monitored situation

I've nerve heard my daughters voice the way i heard it on the phone before and it's a terrifying nose for a mom to hear. If i had the money I'd rush down to be with my daughter immediately. I am terrified about it. I don't know 100 percent what has happened or what the situation is except animal control and something that happen on line that broke her heart. She told me something about someone making a complaint about her rats and she told me when she asked the animal control officer who complained he wouldn't say who but she begged for some info and the AC worker hesitantly told her that the complaint came from out of state (not in California) And also know on in the building Becky lives in knows about her rats for they are all new tenants The animal control officer said the wasn't there to take the rats and he just wanted to make sure they wee all ok but he got a tip that they weren't living in ideal accommodations and being neglected which i know is untrue. My daughter has always been an animal lover. She just got jammed into a situation she couldn't fix but she was working on it. All she needed was two more weeks to fix all this.

My mother, Becky's grandma is a nervous wreck and has been crying over her grand daughters distress and being distraught so now i have my daughter and mother to worry about.

I'd like to add my own opinion here. since this complaint came from out of state it had to be someone on one of those rat groups she belongs to, someone who has her address. Someone who has her address.

Soon a she is out of the hospital, tomorrow or the next day she and grandma and hopefully myself are finding homes for a bulk of her rats. I am in the process of finding resources for this and we will get it all taken care of by the time animal control comes back on Friday. I am hoping to fly down there but i don't think i can swing it, maybe my mom (Becky's grandma can help with the money) My daughter needs me right now.

I am so scared for my daughter, I've never heard her cry like that on the phone. If you are a mother than you understand how hurtful it is to hear your child crying and in distress. Why someone on her rat groups would do such a thing blows my mind. My daughter is the most loving, caring and compassionate person i know. She doesn't deserve this. And if she did kill herself I'd never forgive herself.

If and when she comes back to these groups (do you call the groups, forums or message boards?) Please be compassionate with her. She told me that she said some harsh words to a few of you who are really close friends and she didn't mean it, she was just upset. When she does come back to these groups, please be compassionate with her and be nice and don't bring up the past. I can tell how much she loves you guys. She mentioned a few names of the people she really loves on the groups. I hope i can remember all the names. DRusilla, Phyllis, Bev, Dianna, someone name Nim. She says they are like family to her.

I'm terrified of losing my daughter, she is the only child i have and seeing her in pain like this... it's a mothers worst nightmare.

If i hear any news on her hospital stay i will e mail you again because i have her AOL password and e mail, stuff, but like i said the will probably sign uot WMA- without medical advice because she can't leave her pets but she needs someone other than friends and family to talk to ,like a psychiatrist.

Also they want to check this heart condition she may have.

Well, i have to go. I'm getting tired but i wanted to relay what she said to you guy. She said she loves you and she is sorry. Please be nice to her if she comes back. She is so sensitive and a bit in her own world, she's has a very child likes soul and doesn't always handle things like an adult. Ok, I can't type and cry anymore.I'm al the way up in Ms. Shasta and i can't do anything about this up here, hopefully i can get down there to her and protect my daughter and help her get al this rat stuff organized by Friday.

Thank you for listening. And if you have any questions, please just e mail me at Rebecca's address. just title it " Judy'

Becky has had some traumatic experiences in her life as a child, some by my own doing, she never had a normal childhood, she was molested, physically abused and this has damaged her and she isn't normal, she is a loner and the most tender person i know. My mother said she looks withdrawn, like a zombie, won't speak or eat. She just lays in bed.